Seeing the end of a rainbow and other musings
Has anyone (aside from Jen and Rico E, MaBelle) seen the end of a rainbow? I/we have. Last Sunday. It was a glorious — and humorous — sight, especially after realizing that one end of the rainbow (before the rains came near the vicinity) pointed straight to the PGH-OPD. Haha. I guess we have to dig for that pot of gold there… Anyway, i don’t think i’ll ever see anything like that again in my entire life. But then, it proved that things you didn’t know could happen, could.
Segue to the perennial musings about the upcoming life-changing event: this examination is really a test of faith. Of course, no one can REALLY be ready for it (unless you’re superhuman or you’re not doing anything else in your life), but the occasional (if not frequent) worries come your way. Like, what if i don’t pass? Have i studied the right materials? How come i don’t remember much, even after my nth reading??? Worse, why am i worrying about non-boards-related things during these times????? These plagued me yesterday, which hindered me from focusing. And then, Edhel my landlady said what [i think] i needed to hear at that moment: in a nutshell, worrying is useless. It’s unproductive and pointless. And, more importantly, we shouldn’t worry because God is the one doing the worrying for us. We should just do what is [physiologically] possible to prepare. To you people out there who are worry-warts like myself, STOP. We are not doing ourselves any good by worrying.
Another realization came to mind: thoughts or worries, when voiced out, make them more real, even if hindi naman sila talaga totoo. Sigh, the power of autosuggestion has come my way oh too many times.
Anyway, i wait in vain for September to come…
Oops, mag-aaral nga pala ako. (one WHACK! to the head)
July 15th, 2005 at 7:27 am
boards = scary scary scary. s
July 16th, 2005 at 1:14 am
Pats,
Kunwari ka pa. Natatakot kang di ka magtotop no? =) good luck.
July 16th, 2005 at 7:59 am
Personally I don’t think I’m worrying enough! This has happened to me before. I end up going nuts the night before the exam! But take things a day at a time, I guess. Louis L’Amour once said, “Victory is won, not in miles but in inches. Win a little now, hold your ground, and later win a little more.” You can do it Pats!
August 30th, 2005 at 3:29 am
Hello Pats.. hmmm… wala lang, it never occurred to me that you’re a worry-wart.. you’re one of the calmest (hmmm, tama ba grammar?) persons I’ve ever known. Wala lang. I really look up to you. And you know what, masochista siguro ako pero sobrang nag-enjoy ako while preparing for the boards– I learned a whole lot more bout myself and I became much closer to Him and I felt that it is what matters most… the learning part, the feeling that you had a great journey with Him kahit umiiyak iyak ka na dahil lost ka na naman from all your readings. I don’t know. I felt that the experience was a blessing in itself. I know you will always be blessed. I will miss PGH and the people in it who had made my life worth living. Thank you